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A Day | 12.04.04 | 04:08:28 PM
Sometimes ya just can't win.
At the urging of a homeopathic-friendly friend (urging in this case meaning dragging me into Whole Foods and buying the stuff for me), I tried out the Beanmomma's suggestion of using coffea cruda. Now, I'm on the fence about the whole homeopathic medicine issue, but the reasoning behind it makes sense to me. I'm not really sure what to make of stuff like this, but this incomprehensible scientific jargon seems to indicate that the stuff works, at least on rats.
So, I've been trying it for the past week, and you know, I think it's working! I've been going to bed at around midnight to 12:30 most nights (which is early for me) and getting right to sleep without racing thoughts or being haunted by the ghosts of those who've suffered at my hands.
On the other hand...
Now that I'm keeping normal hours, instead of being a boundless fountain of vim and vigor, I can barely keep my eyes open all day! I've gone from not being able to sleep, to wanting to sleep all the time!
This is the kind of bitter irony that makes me laugh uproariously, then jump off of a fifty story building.
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AUTHOR: jennifer and the beans
EMAIL: beanmom@beanmom.com
IP: 69.141.20.124
URL: http://www.kjsl.com/~beanmom/beandiary.html
DATE: 12/04/2004 04:18:33 PM
Ugh, yeah, I get that too. It's like, you can live on pure adrenaline as long as you're sleeping really really poorly every night. But once you start to make up that sleep debt, your body realizes that it's actually REALLY FRICKING TIRED. Or something. Time to take a week off from work and spend it in a coma.
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AUTHOR: hannah
EMAIL: misshannah@gmail.com
IP: 141.214.17.5
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DATE: 12/06/2004 08:46:36 AM
Maybe you should try this other one instead:
Arsenicum album (bromide of arsenic) helps those with various fears or who are physically tired yet too anxiety-ridden to sleep or who wake up after midnight and have difficulty getting back to sleep.
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A Day | 12.16.04 | 02:43:57 AM
Dag, writing reviews has gotten so much easier since I abandoned my artistic principles and decided to simply transcribe whatever lame ass shite that happens to enter my head. Including but not restricted to the word "shite."
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AUTHOR: Jim
EMAIL: chaos@corrupt.net
IP: 63.167.178.72
URL: http://chaos.corrupt.net/
DATE: 12/16/2004 11:06:33 AM
That's how I do things. Lame ass shite that's done is better than purely theoretical works of perfect art. Well, usually.
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A Day | 12.29.04 | 03:34:50 AM
I think it is entirely possible that 2005 will be a year of beauty and inexpressible joy, or possibly a rancid Suckapalooza of epic proportions. Maybe I will rise up through the fog of despair and world-weariness and find myself basking in the pure light of God's love. Or maybe I'll have a big dizzy spell while speeding down the interstate at 85 and crash my car head-on into a big rig that will crush my body like a sack of eggs. Or maybe neither of those things will happen, and I'll just remain exactly the way that I am now. If the status quo was behind one door, and behind the other door was either joy or death, an equal chance of either, which would I/you choose? I don't know. I guess God will have to choose for me. You, too.
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AUTHOR: Jim
EMAIL: chaos@corrupt.net
IP: 24.12.9.132
URL: http://chaos.corrupt.net
DATE: 12/29/2004 04:58:07 AM
Those four things are pretty hard to do, particularly the last three. My guess is that C is the key to it all. Who knows, though. Maybe it's some unfairly hidden secret lever that I just happened to not hover the mouse over.
Were I religious, I'd think I'd attribute everything as part of the unknowable plan. After all, if God is a higher being, how could mortals possibly comprehend the plan or assume that their idea of "good" is the same as God's? Or that an omniscient and omnipotent God would even think in terms of good and evil? Perhaps God would 'think' it best to wipe out humanity for 'reasons' as understandable to humanity as their reasons for wiping out displaced swarms of locusts that are unbalancing local ecosystems are to the locusts?
Well, that's probably enough from the Lovecraftian school of religious thought for the year for everyone.
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AUTHOR: hannah
EMAIL: misshannah@gmail.com
IP: 141.214.17.5
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DATE: 12/29/2004 08:35:36 AM
I think both y'all's points are good. Real good. And I only have one other comment: (comment deleted for stupidity)
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AUTHOR: groovebunny
EMAIL: wabbit@groovebunny.com
IP: 209.246.244.1
URL: http://www.groovebunny.com/blog
DATE: 01/10/2005 01:23:43 PM
I don't believe God had a hand in what happened on 12/26. Nature just caught up with us, and those poor people were in the wrong place at the wrong time. If anything, if God did have in mankind, I tend to believe there is no plan, and that's it's up to to us to just try and be the best we can be with what we are given.
I really hope 2005 will be the year for you B. But I'm totally with you on the freaking Bush thing.
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A Day | 12.31.04 | 04:42:02 AM
Last year, I made two resolutions: to cut down on the booze, and to stop not doing things because "I'm tired." I think I made some progress on both fronts. Although I still drank more in 2004 than I did in 2002, I drank less than I did in 2003. So I'm trending in the right direction. On the other hand, I now disavow that resolution because I no longer believe in it. I think I really should just get soused as much as I feel like, because really, I don't have the constitution of a hard drinker anymore, so it's kind of a self-limiting thing.
In 2004, I still didn't do things because I was tired, but not nearly as often, and I also worked harder to find ways to not be so damned tired all the time. The research continues.
So, for 2005, I hereby resolve:
1. To actually do some of the things that it enters my head to do.
There's a difference -- don't you think? -- between impulsiveness and lack of discipline. I lack discipline, which means that I don't do the things I need to do. But I also lack impulsiveness, which means that I don't do the things I want to do. Whenever I think of something I'd like to do, I immediately start analyzing my choices, the costs and benefits, and more often than not end up doing nothing. It would be very easy to spend an entire lifetime that way. I don't want to do that.
So, next year I'm going to try and do more things that I want to do. Prudently, of course. As for the lack of discipline thing, I'll save that for 2006.
2. To give incrementally less of a shit what anybody thinks of me.
I could explain this, but fuck it.
3. To be ruthless about doing what I need to do in order to do the things I want to do.
If I'm honest with myself, I have to admit that I'm frittering my life away on trivialities. I need to define exactly what my goals are, and then focus on them like, yes, a laser.
That's it. Now I'm going to go curl up in a little furry ball and dream about having my legs amputated by a dwarf wearing a fedora.
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AUTHOR: Sherri
EMAIL: Sylkenvelet@yahoo.com
IP: 68.59.165.165
URL: http://www.formyselfandstrangers.blogspot.com
DATE: 12/31/2004 10:24:19 AM
When you figure out the whole "Don't be tired" thing, let us in on it?
I had a couple of weeks of "not tired" this month. It was weird and wonderful. The only reasons I could find for it were Lack of Outside Pressure to Do Things and Looking Forward to Something that Required Things. I did stuff because I wanted to. As soon as a "have to" came along, all my energy went out the window and has not really come back since.
There's also the possibility, ever so slight, that drinking more water would help, but I don't know that for sure.
Congratulations on surviving another year. I'm rooting for you to survive many more, if only for my own selfish enjoyment.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: groovebunny
EMAIL: wabbit@groovebunny.com
IP: 209.246.244.1
URL: http://www.groovebunny.com/blog
DATE: 01/10/2005 01:29:18 PM
Congrats on the drinking less than you did in 2003. As for impulsiveness and discipline, there definitely are differences. The last part of 2004 saw me reacting impulsively to certain situations. Bad stuff impulsiveness we you find your emotions and actions out of control. In 2005 it will be all about the discipline for me.
For Skattie.